tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60963815034450209832024-03-19T03:15:39.627-07:00Rachel's Ramblings 365Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.comBlogger101125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-89351554816282403502014-08-26T14:17:00.002-07:002014-08-26T14:17:47.563-07:00Gettin' the Juices Flowin' I'm trying to get the juices flowing to begin the writing process, but let me tell you, I find myself overthinking...<br />
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I feel like I have to go back to the way it was when I began to blog in the first place (which I know is a complete lie). Or I think that I need to study up real good before I can deliver a powerful message...which I also know is a big fat lie. Either way, I think I'm experiencing real writer's block.<br />
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For those of you who are just reading this, my book will be predominately about our experience grieving the death of our firstborn Parker Geofferson, but it will be about so much more than that. It will be about the way that God became so real through that experience. How God moved us into such intimacy with Him in such a real and tangible way. How, after knowing God my whole life, I actually experienced a move of God that shook me to the core and changed me dramatically and I haven't been the same since.<br />
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This book will be a testimony to God's goodness. It will break the lie that God does bad things. It will break the lie that God gives us ailments to teach us lessons. It will shed light on God's desires for his kids. It will shed light on the power of Jesus' love for us. It will enlightened all who read it, whether they are grieving a loss, or are simply looking for more, that there is more out there when they partner with God, the uncreated one, the maker of heaven and earth, the alpha and omega, the one who was, is and is to come. God almighty, Abba, Adonai, my heavenly Father.<br />
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This book will also help to invite people into a relationship with Jesus that will be unlike one they have ever had before. One where they get to partner with Him to heal the sick, give hope to the down and depressed and raise people from the dark depths to the highest of heights. I cannot wait to get started.<br />
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I think my juices just got flowing!! Praise Jesus!!Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-77717400646086932172014-08-12T14:58:00.002-07:002014-08-12T14:58:43.677-07:00A Few Fun Family Photos (see what I did there...yep)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Geoff leading the teens on Wednesday nights. He's a wonderful leader.</div>
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First family photo with Victoria (Tori) Mae</div>
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SISTERS!! Tori Mae = 9 months </div>
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Norah Joan = 4 (and 3/4)</div>
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Working! Getting ready for Wednesday Night kids church. I love my "job".</div>
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Geoff and I celebrated 10 years of wedded bliss June of this year!! </div>
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I love my best friend and partner in ministry!</div>
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Oh the places we'll go! Who knows? Only God does!!</div>
<br />Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-59908412878499457622014-08-12T14:35:00.000-07:002014-08-12T14:35:11.321-07:00A Quick Game of "Catch Up"Where have I been these last few years? Well...<br />
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Life from my last post through today has been pretty amazing. God made some major changes in our lives. It has been a wild ride full of His rich blessings. Let me take you to where it all began...<br />
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April 2012:<br />
- My father-in-law Mark, showed a short video clip of a woman named Heidi Baker advertising her Compelled By Love book. My heart was warmed and my spirit was stirred toward ministry. That afternoon, as Geoff and I ate dinner, I asked him what he thought about us going in to full time ministry. The desire was planted.<br />
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May 2012:<br />
- Geoff receives a text from his brother Greg that his church is looking for a full time Worship Pastor. The church is Redwood Family Church in Redmond, WA. The same church that my dad was lead pastor of from the time I was 9 until I was 18.<br />
- Geoff and I visit Redwood Family Church and meet Pastor Todd and his wife Janna. The church really felt like home, for both of us. Geoff tells me then that they are looking for a full time associate pastor for worship and youth. <br />
- Geoff and I discuss the idea of heading into full time ministry and find that that is what we desire. That night, Geoff emails Todd and the interview process begins.<br />
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June 2012:<br />
- This month was a bit of a blur. There were a lot of phone calls between Todd and Geoff. There were a lot of roller coaster emotions for me. I was excited, nervous, scared all the emotions that go with leaving a secure life behind and saying yes to God. If we were hired on, we would leave our home that we owned in Idaho (not able to sell so we found renters, praise Jesus), jobs that we were established in and would head into the wild unknown of a life in full time ministry. So you can see why I was excited/nervous/scared to do this. Oh, did I mention that we would move without a job for me, that was the most nerve racking piece, to a city that was nearly triple the cost of living! Praise God that He had everything under control.<br />
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July 2012:<br />
- July 8th: Geoff and I head to Redmond, WA for him to lead worship at Redwood Family Church and meet the congregation. At this point, no decision had been made to hire us on. We stayed with Geoff's brother Greg and his wife Ashley in Kenmore and drive around looking at places to live if we are hired on. The cost of rent made my stomach sink and made my nerves increase. I praise Jesus for His calming presence through this whole process. <br />
- July 10th: Geoff receives a call that Redwood Family Church wants to bring him on as full time staff!! What a night! We were back home in Idaho and could not sleep! We got the call around 10p and didn't get to sleep until 1am. We just kept looking at each other and saying, "It's really happening. We're really doing this!" That next day I gave my work my 60 day notice. Our first Sunday with Redwood Family (RFC) was scheduled for September 1st.<br />
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August 2012:<br />
- My last day of work was the 17th of this month. That was a hard day. Northwest Christian Credit Union had been a part of my life for almost 5 years. They had been with me through the death of our son Parker (they shut down both credit union locations to attend his funeral) and had supported me so fully with my grief and healing process. They were the BEST organization to work for.<br />
- That following Friday, Geoff, Grady (his little brother), our daughter Norah (now 2 years old) and myself headed back to Redmond, WA to look for a place to live. Yes, less than a week from leaving our house in Nampa and we still did not have a place to live in Washington... Praise Jesus we found a cute townhouse in the Juanita area of Kirkland and had a move in date set for August 26th.<br />
- August 25th: Geoff, Norah, our 13 year old chocolate lab Opie and I packed up our CR-V and the moving van, kissed, hugged and cried our way out of Nampa and headed for Washington. I remember, as I crossed the border from Idaho into Oregon I nearly had to pull over because I was crying so hard. I felt all sorts of emotions and the only way they were expressed was through nearly uncontrollable crying. I praise Jesus for His safe keeping and for His comfort during that five and half hour car ride to Yakima where we spent the night with my parents.<br />
- In Yakima we dropped off our dog Opie with family friends where he would live out the rest of his days. The townhouse we rented allowed dogs, but the cost was way more than we could afford. That was a very sad night for our family. Geoff and Opie had been together Opie's entire life so to say goodbye was hard. I praise Jesus for His peace and comfort during this time.<br />
- Sunday, August 26th Geoff and I rolled into our townhouse complex and began to unload the van. We met several new faces and I had the privilege of saying hello to old friends. It was a great day that ended with a wonderful BBQ on the Kirkland waterfront with new and old friends. Geoff and I knew we were home and that God's good plan was all fitting into place.<br />
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September - October of 2012 brought more beautiful blessings. Two days after living in Washington I was placed in a temp job in Bellevue from September - December. I was nervous about only have a temp job that had no prospects of becoming full time, so I applied for a full time position. October I was hired on full time, with a company in Bellevue, WA named Greythorn. I worked there from October 2012 until August 2013 when God opened the doors for me to work full time at Redwood Family Church as their Children's Pastor! God is SO GOOD!!!<br />
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Those are just the first few months of our whirlwind experience with God changing our lives so dramatically. And it didn't stop there! November of 2012 Geoff and I attended a conference with Todd and Janna called the Healing Nazarene. It was put on by our friends Abbi and Benji Rhodes. They are the lead pastors at Church of the Undignified in Seattle, WA on Capitol Hill and are doing amazing things for the kingdom. It was a beautiful conference where our worlds were rocked in a wonderful way. I'm not sure how else to describe it other than to say that Geoff and I both felt like we were different people when we left. We also felt like our relationship with Todd and Janna was cemented together. Where the four of us felt like a bond was created in that weekend that will not be shaken. God radically spoke into my life in such a way that I will never be the same again. My eyes were opened to His beauty and my heart was moved to see people have the same experience I did during that conference. I am still a work in progress, but I'm so excited for what God wants to do!<br />
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There are so many more details that I will share along the way, but the simple truth is that God moved us, we responded and our lives are radically different. No longer are we living a simple Christian life. We are now living a life that is focused on pursuing Jesus each and every day in each and every moment. We are focused on Jesus' mission to bring the Kingdom of heaven to earth through every interaction. We are focused on loving the one in front of us. We are focused God and that is enough, more than enough for us.<br />
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I can't wait to share more! God is doing so much! He is up to so much good!! Stay tuned!<br />
- Rachel<br />
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Random side note: October 18, 2013, Victoria Mae Harmon was born and added to our family. She is a wonderful addition!<br />
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Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-49086020173355480792014-08-12T13:43:00.000-07:002014-08-12T13:43:59.751-07:00I AM a writerIn the past month I have been contacted by 3 separate individuals seeking advice on how to talk to a mom who lost a baby. As a result, my desire to help grieving momma's and daddy's has been reignited. <br />
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Shortly after the death of our son Parker, I had this desire to see a nonprofit started to help grieving parents. I didn't really know how the nonprofit would look, but I knew I wanted to start one. After talking with my Uncle, who has extensive experience in starting nonprofits, it was determined it would not be fruitful. So I threw out the dream and moved on with healing. I was given the opportunity, about a year and a half after Parker died, to lead a support group for grieving moms at Lifeline Crisis Pregnancy center in Nampa, ID. Almost a year after starting the group I had to leave my ladies because my husband Geoff and I had been called to full time ministry in Redmond, WA at Redwood Family Church.<br />
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All that being said, the fire in my soul to help grieving parents has been reignited and is growing stronger day by day.<br />
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This past Sunday, our lead pastor Todd gave a word on how God has created us all to be creative. It was a wonderful sermon and it sparked in me the desire to partner with God to see my dream of helping grieving parents and families come to reality. So I'm restarting this blog as well.<br />
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In addition to focusing on grief support, this blog will also focus on my life as an Associate Pastor's wife and as Children's Pastor. It will focus on the day to day normalities of living a ministry minded life as well as the new normal I'm stepping in to of living to bring the Kingdom every day. <br />
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I'm excited to jump start this blog again, and I'm also excited to delve deeper into writing my first ever book. I believe God desires for me to tell my story of the death of our son Parker and the beautiful restoration God has done in my life in these past 6 years. I can't wait to start this project. It's going to be a big one, it's probably going to be hard and it may even hit a few road blocks, but I feel strongly that God wants me to do this, so He will see it through to completion with me, no matter how long it takes.<br />
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So welcome back everyone! It feels good to be writing once again.<br />
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- RachelRachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-82585818558890593822011-09-15T08:52:00.000-07:002011-09-15T08:55:25.193-07:00A Hard DayI am overcome with emotion today. It's one of those weird days. The sun is not exactly shining outside and I'm not totally unhappy. It's just...limbo-ie weirdness. I have cried twice today already. But I've also laughed this morning. It's classic really.<br /><br />I miss Parker. I miss him dearly and I'm finding that this birthday is harder then last year for some reason. Not sure what that reason is, but it's just harder this year.<br /><br />So today, we'll take flowers to his grave and educate his little sister on her big brother Parker who is in heaven.<br /><br />We miss you Parker Geofferson and love you so very much.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-85521323971606798802011-09-12T12:38:00.000-07:002011-09-12T13:40:41.360-07:00The moment I knew what love was.<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:trackmoves/> <w:trackformatting/> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:donotpromoteqf/> <w:lidthemeother>EN-US</w:LidThemeOther> <w:lidthemeasian>X-NONE</w:LidThemeAsian> <w:lidthemecomplexscript>X-NONE</w:LidThemeComplexScript> 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Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-qformat:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0in; mso-para-margin-right:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">Parker Geofferson Harmon would have been three Thursday, the 15<sup>th</sup> of September. He entered this world and left it in one breath. I miss him deeply with every fiber of my being even still, three years later. Every time I see his picture, or look at his little hand mold, I ache with an intense desire to hold him once more. <br /><br />I remember that Sunday afternoon, when we walked into Mercy's Labor and Delivery, like it was yesterday. I remember the sights, sounds and smells of that part of hospital. I remember the silence of the Doppler as it moved around my large nine month pregnant belly. I remember each individual thud of my heart as I waited and prayed for something miraculous to take place. I remember the walk from triage to the delivery room and the feeling of complete peace and calm of the Holy Spirits presence that came over me. I remember the deathly silence of the ultrasound machine as Dr. Rudeen delivered the devastating news that he was "over all four chambers of the heart and they are not moving". I remember it all, every bit of it. Every second of every moment of our time there...<br /><br />I remember the pain of each contraction. I remember the relief of the epidural. I remember the moments of light heartedness when I experienced some of the more...embarrassing moments of delivery. I remember the strength that Geoff's mom and my mom provided during the delivery. I remember the silence of Parker's arrival into the world...<br /><br />I remember the sound as the cameras clicked furiously to capture Parker. I remember passing him around and watching each person's face as they held him and quietly said their goodbyes. I remember the feeling of being squeezed by my parents and my in-laws and feeling so much love. I remember when Geoff, with Parker in his arms, left our room with dad Russell, dad Harmon and Grady and walked the long walk to the waiting car that would take Parker's body to the funeral home… <br /><br />I remember it all, but what I remember most was all the love. I know it sounds hippie-ish, but it's true. There was so much love there. I remember being overwhelmed by all the love that was poured on us when we were in the hospital waiting to meet with the doctor. I remember Jim Rotz coming into our hospital room and praying with us that God would be near and feeling God's love pouring out of Mr. Rotz while he prayed. I remember my mother-in-law holding my left foot and my mom holding my right foot while I was in delivery and feeling so overwhelmed by the motherly love that was pouring out of them as they literally held me up through Parker's delivery and gave me the courage to press on and push through. I remember our dads, who are both pastors, praying over us and showering us with a love that only a father's strength can give. <br /><br />I also remember, the moment I looked at Parker and saw his sweet little face and his sweet little body, being filled with love like I had never felt before. This was not the same love that I felt towards my family or towards my husband Geoff. This was a new love. A love that made me want to switch places with my son. A love that made me want, so badly, to turn back the hands of time and try and save him (even though I knew that would be impossible). It was a love that I could only equate to that of a mother. I had heard about this love. I had even had talks with my mom about how my priorities would change after Parker's birth because of this love. But to experience it at that moment was, simply put...unreal. My heart wanted to explode when I looked at his little face, so still and so quiet. I remember feeling strange that I couldn't cry at that moment, but I believe now it was because of the intense amount of love I was feeling. I did not want to let my son go and say goodbye.</p><p class="MsoNoSpacing">Now, three years later I find that love has not changed. Five months after Parker died, we found out we were pregnant with our daughter Norah. I remember being overwhelmed and wondering if I was truly ready to ride this roller coaster again, but unfortunately, the wheels were already set in motion. Nine months later, on November 18th, our sweet Norah Joan was brought into this world screaming and my heart was filled once again with even more love. <br /></p><p class="MsoNoSpacing">It did not replace our love for Parker, but rather strengthened it. I learned, this time, that a mother's love simply grows. One child is not loved or cherished more then another, it simply grows and grows and grows. <br /></p><p class="MsoNoSpacing">Parker Geofferson will always be my first born. He will always be Norah's big brother and I will always love him with the love that only a mother knows. The love that is overwhelming at times. That makes your throat feel tight with emotion, and your heart feel like it has hit it's makes fill. It is a love like none other. It's truly an unshakable, indescribable love. A love that I cherish knowing and a moment that I will never forget, the moment I fell in love with my son.<br /></p><p class="MsoNoSpacing"><br /></p><p class="MsoNoSpacing"></p>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-6364906652136749172011-07-26T12:23:00.001-07:002011-07-26T12:25:38.701-07:00A Few New Fun Pictures (say that 3 times fast)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAB2N-9jvX3BjTsv3It8ZP70ysvEcDMK_p01AvyiV9AQ554-UgnHUp3REJX39Gp80k0JHMqHVzj2_YXXQsTjjVxDNdsOZH5exQTEXUSrx3P-cCGkmxGT9lCvaUPJY_0GmZ480suQO6J5Q/s1600/223714_526079796384_167300479_30645156_4702248_n.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAB2N-9jvX3BjTsv3It8ZP70ysvEcDMK_p01AvyiV9AQ554-UgnHUp3REJX39Gp80k0JHMqHVzj2_YXXQsTjjVxDNdsOZH5exQTEXUSrx3P-cCGkmxGT9lCvaUPJY_0GmZ480suQO6J5Q/s320/223714_526079796384_167300479_30645156_4702248_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633744220425288258" border="0" /></a>Hitchin' a ride with daddy. Best way to travel.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNNDXdkjoBz2lXCGv3OxLw6IFIeSH3wICTUUFUwjDSRHwUMgr0MKm6ZYhodlvBwKB32eZdnWqjei_uFfx5Gdsl-ETDGsf2T_wKboq99cZXr9o1UDNtyy9mwwW4Sr_fYjmlXzvBDQp5ge0/s1600/283348_526079711554_167300479_30645151_5448418_n.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNNDXdkjoBz2lXCGv3OxLw6IFIeSH3wICTUUFUwjDSRHwUMgr0MKm6ZYhodlvBwKB32eZdnWqjei_uFfx5Gdsl-ETDGsf2T_wKboq99cZXr9o1UDNtyy9mwwW4Sr_fYjmlXzvBDQp5ge0/s320/283348_526079711554_167300479_30645151_5448418_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633744216168676514" border="0" /></a>Such a sweet picture of the two of them. They're best buds.<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieZRHUdEwWY1h9qEiiOknnIl2z1sgirhEqqi7lS9Fn-fY438S4o3oY7uCik9VqbTixH2RXxa5eaj6M6awbAMcWmU0Lol7tt9vrw64nh97vqVVDXY17zYx1U1lK_aI7Srrrk_mUIPh8IQU/s1600/284615_526079951074_167300479_30645166_5062528_n.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieZRHUdEwWY1h9qEiiOknnIl2z1sgirhEqqi7lS9Fn-fY438S4o3oY7uCik9VqbTixH2RXxa5eaj6M6awbAMcWmU0Lol7tt9vrw64nh97vqVVDXY17zYx1U1lK_aI7Srrrk_mUIPh8IQU/s320/284615_526079951074_167300479_30645166_5062528_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633743946944592882" border="0" /></a>Is it ever too soon to teach your daughter how to drive? This is daddy and Norah at Trinity Pines this past weekend.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-30370081172501644142011-07-26T12:22:00.000-07:002011-07-26T12:23:04.382-07:00Pin-ObsessedUh Oh, it has happened. I have joined the Pinterest world and have been infected with the obsession. <br /><br />IT's SO ADDICTING!!Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-17720895976465271322011-07-24T16:57:00.000-07:002011-07-24T17:17:42.812-07:00Nothing Profound, Just Wanted to WriteI have found that the reason why I stink at posting is because the bar has been set to high...by no one other than me. <div><br /></div><div>I have placed myself in a bit of a pickle. If I don't feel I have anything of any kind of value to add to the blogging world, then I simply won't post. </div><div><br /></div><div>Well that's stupid. After all, I didn't start this blog to be this inspired writer. I started it simply because I wanted to share about my life and the ramblings that build up in my brain. I wanted to vent my rantings, to shout out my victories and to share a funny anecdote. </div><div><br /></div><div>So here it is. A rambling...</div><div><br /></div><div>I am an avid reader of Real Simple magazine (can I get a "what what" from my fellow readers out there!). I have been subscribing to their magazine since 2007. I love them for their recipes (that I've never cooked, but love to dream about cooking), for their organizing tips and for their stories of daily life. For the past four years Real Simple has been hosting a contest for readers to enter. Each year (for the last four) they have submitted a question to be answered in essay form from a reader. The winner receives $3,000, a trip to New York and their story published in an issue of Real Simple. This years question is "When did you first understand the meaning of love?" </div><div><br /></div><div>Not sure what I'll write about. I've tossed around several ideas, hopefully I'll find something worthy. We'll see. I'll post it here once I've sent it to Real Simple. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-81500582560034444982011-03-24T16:27:00.000-07:002011-03-24T16:32:20.726-07:00Things Change...Stuff HappensAs you all can see, by the lack of posts on my cupcake blog and the lack of updates regarding the cupcake venture...it ain't happenin. Things change, stuff happens and life rolls. <br /><br />So no cupcakes. No side business regarding cupcakes. No catering cupcakes for weddings. No, up-to-my-elbows-in-batter moments. Things change, stuff happens and life rolls.<br /><br />Now I'm focusing on other things. Like being a wife, a mommy and a volunteer. <br /><br />I'm volunteering with Lifeline still. We had our first official meeting of Solace, a wonderful support group for us grieving moms. 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</xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-qformat:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0in; mso-para-margin-right:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">I wish I knew how to get motivated to share on here again.<span style=""> </span>I do find that it’s difficult to continue about my son, simply because it’s been so long and the Lord has really healed us well.<span style=""> </span>We still miss him and still find it hard to believe that he’s gone, but we are moving forward.<span style=""> </span></p>So I guess the only decision to make here is to move the blog forward.<span style=""> </span> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">Tomorrow evening will be the first meeting of a support group that I have started called Solace.<span style=""> </span>It’s a group for women who have lost a baby due to miscarriage, stillbirth or SIDS.<span style=""> </span>I’m so excited to get this group going.<span style=""> </span>I do understand that the chances of a lot of women coming are slim.<span style=""> </span>I understand that not everyone out there finds it therapeutic to talk to perfect strangers about their grief, but I am hoping that I am wrong.<span style=""> </span>I would love for the group to be HUGE!<span style=""> </span>I would love for women of all walks of life and in all stages of grief to show up.<span style=""> </span>So that may be what I’ll be talking about on here.<span style=""> </span>Not the women and their personal stories, but rather my journey from grieving on my own, to helping others heal.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">I have found that my life purpose has changed.<span style=""> </span>Before, when I was pregnant with Parker, I found myself to be rather turned in.<span style=""> </span>It was all about me, and what was going on in the present time.<span style=""> </span>Now I find that I desire, more than ever before, to help other mommies and daddies who have lost and help hold their hand through that pain and offer them hope that life will turn around.<span style=""> </span>I am so excited, through this support group, to get that journey under way.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">So this blog will still, to some degree, be about Parker and about our journey, but it will also start to be about general updates in this Harmon house regarding Geoff’s life, my life and Norah’s life.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">For instance, one update is that I have started to volunteer with downtown Nampa, specifically with their promotions committee.<span style=""> </span>This is so exciting for me because I will finally be able to utilize my skills in marketing!!<span style=""> </span>I can’t wait!!<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNoSpacing">So thanks for sticking with me and stay tuned!!</p>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-62905159297958368322010-11-06T21:44:00.000-07:002010-11-06T21:50:36.477-07:00Just Right...I HopeI don't know what I think about all of this, but I have found that the closer I get to Norah's first birthday, the more strange it feels to finally be here. <br /><br />I have waited over two years to experience a first birthday of my own. Well, not <em>my</em> own, but of one of my children. I know that we had Parker's first birthday, but it was not (obviously) how I had intended it to be. So now, to be faced, head on, with a first birthday in just two weeks is sort of freaking me out! <br /><br />I'm really trying to not be <em>that mom. </em>You know, the one who goes way to "all out" for the first birthday. The one who buys way to many gifts and just makes an overall "too big a deal" out of this birthday. However, COME ON PEOPLE! WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO STINKIN' LONG!! <br /><br />So I grapple. I grapple with the concept of over doing it to the point where I fear I'm "under" doing it. Ugh...<br /><br />So, I hope I can get enough planned to make it a perfect first birthday. A Goldilocks birthday, if you will. You know, not too big, not too small, but rather...just right, here's hoping.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-91970811172766152552010-11-06T21:32:00.000-07:002010-11-06T21:43:04.412-07:00So Happy!A few weeks back I think I posted something about wanting to start a support group at Lifeline for families who have lost. Well, on Monday night of this past week, I met with Willie from Lifeline and discussed the possiblity of starting such a group. I am so happy to inform all of you readers that this group will start meeting middle of January!!<br /><br />I cannot wait! I believe that this has taken place all in the Lord's perfect time. According to Willie, after she received my email, asking if we could meet sometime to discuss this possiblity, she was informed by Diann (the co-director of Lifeline) that it was needed. I feel that is confirmation. <br /><br />Our group is designed to help support women who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth, infertility or any loss of a baby at any point during pregnancy or after. It is the only faith based support group in Idaho and one that, I believe, will affect many lives. I hope and pray that women from all around, all walks of life and at every stage of grief, choose to attend this group.<br /><br />This is something that I feel I have been called to do. I believe that, after loosing Parker God reshaped the calling for my life and made this, supporting other families who have lost a baby, to be my new calling. OR, maybe and even better yet, maybe it was my calling all a long, and loosing Parker made it that much stronger, to the point where, every day my heart is burdened for new families I hear of who have lost. <br /><br />I ask that you would join with me in praying for this support group. I will be working on a brochure to hand out at Mercy Medical Center's Labor and Delivery ward as well as local OB/GYN offices and Alsips Funeral Home. I ask that you would ask God to bring all the hurting families to this support group. That He would encourage other mommies and daddies who have lost to join together to help each other heal and grow together and closer with Him through this support group. That is my prayer. <br /><br />Thanks guys and enjoy the extra hour of sleep.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-51291573693954286022010-10-26T12:24:00.000-07:002010-10-27T09:11:57.460-07:00Never Fails......every time I hear of another mommy and daddy who have lost, my heart breaks and I go right back to the place Geoff and I were when we lost our Parker.<br /><br />I find myself desiring, strongly, to run to that mommy and tell her everything will be alright. I find myself wanting, so desperately to burst into their hospital room and reassure them that God is near and holding them tight. <br /><br />But I know that I can't, so I wait and I pray for them every day. Every time I think about Parker I pray for other mommies and daddies who have lost. <br /><br />If you could pray with me for these families, that would be wonderful!Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-44480131437399914352010-10-21T11:23:00.000-07:002010-10-21T11:25:37.688-07:00Oh to work from home...It's so hard to be a working mom. I hate the fact that I'm away from my Norah for 8 hours a day. I hate it. However, I fully understand and except the fact that I have chosen this lifestyle for myself. Regardless, it's still hard.<br /><br />So I've been on the hunt for work from home opportunities. I've checked into several options out there, but I am so nervous about taking the plunge. I've even looked into part time work. I just want more time with my Norah. <br /><br />If any one has any advice or ideas that would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-68465993427644005192010-10-20T09:54:00.000-07:002010-10-20T10:12:18.292-07:00I think I have a problemI have found that I stalk people online. <br /><br />I'll log onto facebook, go to a friends page, look at their friends and so on and so on until I'm on someone's facebook that I don't even know, staring at their pictures and reading about them. Is this weird? I think so.<br /><br />What's really weird is that I find myself getting inspired by many of the people that I stalk on facebook or here on blogger. I find myself being moved to try new things or to step out of my comfort zone and attempt something that I never thought I would do.<br /><br />For instance, I have been intrigued by the thought of a "v-log". Yup, I am toying with the idea of a video blog. How crazy would that be?! I have always had a love affair with talking and I personally think I'm better at talking then I am at writing, at least for the most part that seems to be true. If only I could get my husband to agree to this, then I might do it.<br /><br />Also, I have been inspired to not stick to one topic of blogging. For the last few years I have blogged strickly about my Parker and as life changes and morphs, I have discovered that there is so much more I want to say. So I'm going to continue to blog about my Parker, but also about other life happenings because the blog is, after all, titled Rachel's Ramblings 365. <br /><br />So, just wanted to share about my stalker-ish ways and about what's going on in my head in an effort to figure it all out for myself. <br /><br />Thanks for reading everyone!! Stay tuned!Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-47560208834462077572010-09-21T09:15:00.000-07:002010-09-21T09:27:11.963-07:00DREAMSI dream a lot, but not when I sleep. I mean, I daydream a lot. I daydream about what it would be like to be on TV hosting my own show. I daydream about what it would be like to have tons of money and be able to purchase anything and everything I would ever want. I daydream about what it would be like to travel all over and not be afraid of flying. I daydream a lot. <br /><br />Lately, I've been daydreaming about several things. One of them is owning my own business. I have this dream about owning my own cupcake bakery and making cupcakes for a living. Cupcakes for weddings, birthday parties, and just for enjoying everyday. I would love to do this. So far, Robin and I have been working on making this dream a reality. We are going to start small, from our homes and then hopefully it will grow into something big where we can open a shop. I dream about that shop too. I picture a cute little store front where people can come, sit down, have a cup of coffee or a cold glass of milk and enjoy a delicious, fresh from the oven cupcake. MMmmm....someday soon this will come true. <br /><br />The other dream I have is of being a public speaker, a motivational public speaker. I would love LOVE to travel around and speak in front of groups. I daydream what it would be like to be asked to speak in front of a large crowd and share my testimony and give hope. I daydream of what it would be like to be able to touch the lives of perfect strangers in profound ways simply by sharing my journey with them. I daydream of being able to quit my 9-5 job to pursue this. Someday soon this will come true as well.<br /><br />Finally, my last dream is of writing a book about our Parker. I would love to be able to publish our story of that first year following his death and then being able to touch people through that book. What I wouldn't give for that opportunity. It truly wasn't until I started blogging our journey that first year, that I realized that I could write and that I loved to write. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to NNU and major in Journalism or English or something along those lines. Or even just go back to college entirely and major in Creative Writing. Someday soon, I hope, this dream will come true.<br /><br />These are my dreams. I hope and pray that at least one of them comes true. That maybe someday, I'll be announcing the grand opening of ZetaNorah's Cupcakery, or maybe giving the dates of my speaking engagements or maybe telling you all where my book will be sold. Who knows, all I know is I'm going to keep dreaming and keep pursuing those dreams however silly it may or may not be. <br /><br />Happy Tuesday everyone!Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-73698901313422156482010-09-17T09:59:00.000-07:002010-09-17T10:48:21.840-07:00Happy Birthday to ME!Today is my 27<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">th</span> birthday. How is that even possible. I have started and restarted this blog twice now and each time I have a different topic regarding age that I want to discuss.<br /><br />The first one started out about how I'm three years from 30 and how I'm completely OK with that. <br /><br />The second one started out talking about how Geoff got me a wonderful Flying M coffee mug with a gift card to that coffee shop, along with some cash to spend this weekend. Then I went into talking about how I had to get my license renewed today and discovered that I'm 30lbs heavier then I was when I got my license back in 2006...ugh.<br /><br />This blog will focus on how much I love birthdays no matter what the age or weight. <br /><br />Birthdays are a reminder that you've made it. You've made it one more year. You've come so far. 27 years! That's AMAZING! Whenever you hear about people being married for that long you say, "WOW! Good for you!" When you hear about someone being at the same company for 27 years you find that impressive as well. So 27 is awesome! <br /><br />I embrace 27, because it means that I'm getting further and further away from 18, which I'm totally OK with. Getting farther from my teens means to me, that maybe, I'm getting more mature...maybe...some days. <br /><br />So bring on my 27<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">th</span> year of life. I'm ready! PLUS, I know that the closer I get to being 30, means the closer I get to fulfilling my husbands prophecy that I'm going to be a HOT 30 year old.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-2920088564301829092010-09-12T08:34:00.000-07:002010-09-12T08:44:34.055-07:00Strange Feelings<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE2weMME5SlCsAkvJdiu5wMV4_p9wcAHsZPhtr5Fpkh2T0veJ-kPYvc6gwCkdGrLNxBW3Ht3CbwuKMAgxUxo-tYs0j_GQbI_kURouWKP7zyJ5QYIRSNHS1i5haTT6-ayHg8l_8iy96g80/s1600/DSC01285.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5516053358399425730" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE2weMME5SlCsAkvJdiu5wMV4_p9wcAHsZPhtr5Fpkh2T0veJ-kPYvc6gwCkdGrLNxBW3Ht3CbwuKMAgxUxo-tYs0j_GQbI_kURouWKP7zyJ5QYIRSNHS1i5haTT6-ayHg8l_8iy96g80/s320/DSC01285.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>We are approaching the day that would have been Parker's 2nd birthday. It's so hard to believe that it has been 2 years since we met and said goodbye to our little man. I am amazed and blessed at how God has used Geoff and I and truly made something good out of something so tragic. In these past 2 years, we have grown and learned so much about one another and about how great our God is. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>As we approach his birthday, I find myself reminiscing about what life was like before we lost our Parker and even how life changed in that moment we heard he was gone. I find my heart racing as I think about that afternoon in the delivery room when Dr. Rudeen told us his heart was no longer beating. I find my eyes beginning to burn with tears when I think of all the innocent joy I felt on that labor day weekend when I still felt him wiggling and moving inside my belly. I find that empty portion of my heart aching when I think about our little boy, laying so beautifully still and silent in my arms on the evening he was born. And finally, I find myself feeling at peace, knowing that God has carried us so far and continues to carry us as we move along this life path. </div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Parker Geofferson Harmon will always be our first born. He will always be our sweet baby boy and he will always be fondly remembered and loved every day. He will always be celebrated and remembered on his birthday for the rest of our lives.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>We love you Parker Geofferson. </div>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-9280571806086204062010-09-10T11:57:00.000-07:002010-09-10T11:58:34.671-07:00OBSESSIONOh my word, it has happened, I have become obsessed with...CUPCAKES!! It's true! All day, everyday, every hour, all I think about are cupcakes. A new friend of mine, Robin, and I are planning on starting a little cupcake business. We hope and pray it grows into something big and beautiful and wonderful. We are both so excited and as a result of that excitement, I have developed an obsession...Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-11878245025980887592010-08-24T06:46:00.001-07:002010-08-24T06:58:02.086-07:00Picture Post...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqfBOZxjJEFY2g3aJ-nA1ZV0-XM3Yj7ESoryMBaWs8QQ694XxAHPovyvh_hZ0qIK4hWINjxhHx0jeCCoH8lzNmaXJsNK2LncH7hn1Mr3SLNNI-6bILoICja7jEN5ctcdaWzdg3-W3s-Gc/s1600/DSC02698.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508974501459681266" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqfBOZxjJEFY2g3aJ-nA1ZV0-XM3Yj7ESoryMBaWs8QQ694XxAHPovyvh_hZ0qIK4hWINjxhHx0jeCCoH8lzNmaXJsNK2LncH7hn1Mr3SLNNI-6bILoICja7jEN5ctcdaWzdg3-W3s-Gc/s320/DSC02698.JPG" border="0" /></a> Family picture at Chinook Pass in Washington State.<br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifpH3m6US90y_6pXc9mwgDS7N1Zi0vj9dp2HKEgmsKJ-O7XRkdQgQnD1thItrNJhqi5Zph_yRV86jXMZ1MUT3jKSIUpf0IF5XpT6u7W_N3k0ZcZk8ERtMdT156DWqVwcSScTWi-q2B0Q8/s1600/DSC02709.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508974490244634626" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifpH3m6US90y_6pXc9mwgDS7N1Zi0vj9dp2HKEgmsKJ-O7XRkdQgQnD1thItrNJhqi5Zph_yRV86jXMZ1MUT3jKSIUpf0IF5XpT6u7W_N3k0ZcZk8ERtMdT156DWqVwcSScTWi-q2B0Q8/s320/DSC02709.JPG" border="0" /></a> Norah with her Great Grandma Neeley.<br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1wz42gcJynBpMTh4vFY290iOitnvpdaw6UB5ZVb80Ea0CxupDA7xP25yvzFM3UmdMVb27iOF7ANjNm4Tuw6gZgc2IQwIZww1Apl4RD3b2DuA2vDBn2deXVv5iV3eI-3-zQ38dm-E-AFA/s1600/DSC02746.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508974476143792226" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1wz42gcJynBpMTh4vFY290iOitnvpdaw6UB5ZVb80Ea0CxupDA7xP25yvzFM3UmdMVb27iOF7ANjNm4Tuw6gZgc2IQwIZww1Apl4RD3b2DuA2vDBn2deXVv5iV3eI-3-zQ38dm-E-AFA/s320/DSC02746.JPG" border="0" /></a> Norah playing with daddy on the floor.<br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaHv-WfMUnZS7teAsfpn3uH6wPvatVjwn1aAfXM0xKtkYw1o7m-MMde0EP3gHdyKPbOWa4-eJMf7pt7T9AKCbQvI3r7g-BZ_Y79fiYQnyvzZgh8nbXUtxOXHn_8F4nIRCLhqCi3XLhUWM/s1600/DSC02753.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508974469745972946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaHv-WfMUnZS7teAsfpn3uH6wPvatVjwn1aAfXM0xKtkYw1o7m-MMde0EP3gHdyKPbOWa4-eJMf7pt7T9AKCbQvI3r7g-BZ_Y79fiYQnyvzZgh8nbXUtxOXHn_8F4nIRCLhqCi3XLhUWM/s320/DSC02753.JPG" border="0" /></a> My sweet sleeping baby.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmsepo1_JtOu_J7KN-BofiGQemY8mqyeghqWQ8mjQKRACr9MjJqJyHa4iH_c9w4Fn7TmcZETTGWMph0a8dnisvh2jyrHbwr0t6xwNFhyBqZbccjcuIIzKTBoNqp1AZpT7xhTMxH_Rj71U/s1600/DSC02775.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508974457991197026" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmsepo1_JtOu_J7KN-BofiGQemY8mqyeghqWQ8mjQKRACr9MjJqJyHa4iH_c9w4Fn7TmcZETTGWMph0a8dnisvh2jyrHbwr0t6xwNFhyBqZbccjcuIIzKTBoNqp1AZpT7xhTMxH_Rj71U/s320/DSC02775.JPG" border="0" /></a> Norah and mommy at lunch a few months ago.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div></div></div>Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-71610804648664379442010-08-24T06:43:00.000-07:002010-08-24T06:46:21.003-07:00A Happy LifeI'm sitting in my living room, watching the Today Show, sipping my iced latte and watching my sweet 9 month old Norah shred an old issue of Real Simple. I love my life.<br /><br />Every time I have these feelings of complete joy and happiness, I find myself amazed that Geoff and I are finally here, in this place. A place where we have a beautiful home, good stable jobs and a baby girl who is happy and healthy. God is so good.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-90737357579118411732010-08-23T20:52:00.000-07:002010-08-23T21:01:10.915-07:00It's Just a Dream, but Who Knows...I have this dream to own my own business some day, and more so then ever before, I am attacking this dream head on. I hope to be a small business owner some day and I'm hoping that that someday will be sooner rather then later. So...just wanted to share that.<br /><br />If anyone has any advice, let me know.Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-30590986414243554462010-08-18T09:55:00.000-07:002010-08-18T10:05:41.806-07:00A Brief Post..Well, Kind of Brief.I started this blog over two years ago, which is CRAZY to me, but I started it with the complete intent of using it to empty all of my thoughts on all topics, but mainly on topics of being a new mommy for my Parker. Oh my goodness what a change has taken place. <br /><br />Parker is still the main topic of each post, but for a drastically different reason then originally thought. Originally, each post was going to be about being a new, working mom, but after Parker's death, it turned into a way to grieve, heal and grow. This blog has been so therapeutic for me in every way. To write the posts helped, to read the comments helped and then to go back and reread each post has helped as well. <br /><br />My how things can change in the blink of an eye. Never did I think, two years ago, that I would be volunteering at Lifeline pregnancy center, helping grieving moms heal from their losses. Never, in my wildest imaginings did I think that Geoff and I would get the opportunity to be on air sharing our story of loss and healing. Never, did I imagine that my heart would hold a spot for my son and for all babies who have past and their families who grieve. Never did I think any of this would happen, but it has and I am so thankful for the opportunities that have been born from our tragedy. <br /><br />I feel like a broken record sometimes, but I just find myself so amazed at the mysterious ways that God works and moves in times of loss. Romans 8:28 is so true, God does take ALL things and work them for the good of those who love him, those who are called according to his purpose.<br /><br />So that's it, that's all. Nothing horribly profound, just a random rambling. <br /><br />OH! and a prayer request. If you could, ask God to help his will shine through the idea of starting a support group for families who have lost. I would appreciate this greatly. It is my distinct desire to minister to grieving families. I feel God has a place for me to do this work, I just need direction. <br /><br />Thanks everyone! <br /><br />Have a blessed Wednesday<br /><br />***<br /><br />One more thing, Parker's little sister Norah is 9 months old today!!! :)Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6096381503445020983.post-6885913344767119542010-08-17T12:05:00.000-07:002010-08-17T12:17:36.390-07:0030 Days and CountingToday is August 17, which marks 30 days (1 month) until the big 2-7 for this momma! I cannot believe that my twenties are slowly winding down. I keep telling myself that my husband Geoff thinks I'll be the hottest 30 year old mom on the planet, so ending my twenties is ok...we'll see. (I am sure that several of you out there in the internet universe are probably shaking your heads and rolling your eyes...sorry, I'll quit griping).<br /><br />On another note, here is an update in this little Harmon house. <br /><br />Norah had her first tooth break through earlier this month, with the second one close behind! She's slowly getting her toothy grin that I've been dying to see. Also, we experienced, for the first time, what it's like to have a sick little bambina. It was rough. A few Saturdays ago, sissy broke a temp of 103, which freaked me, to say the least. The yuck lasted a few days and finally ended about a week ago. She is now, back to her normal, grinning, chatting, giggling self. <br /><br />Geoff is about to start his 4th (I think) year at River Valley Elementary, which is always an exciting and somewhat stressful time for us to get back in the swing of that routine. It looks like it should be an easy transition this year. He has loved being home, the past few months, with peanut being "Mr. Mom" (and he does a great job, I might add). <br /><br />For the past few months I've been volunteering at Lifeline with Willie, helping out with grief counseling and it has been such an AWESOME experience. I still have a dream of starting a nonprofit or at least helping families who have lost like Geoff and I. Willie has thrown around the idea of starting a support group, which I'm hoping to be apart of. I've also been thinking about the fact that, this September 15th will mark Parker's 2nd birthday and how our family will go about honoring that day. I'm hoping, this year, to start a tradition with Norah on that special day, something to help her get to know her brother as well as honoring his memory.<br /><br />So that's about it. Life in this little Harmon house is pluggin along. Norah Joan is growing like a weed and getting cuter and cuter by the minute. Crawling looks like it's in her future, but I'm ok with her taking her time on that one. <br /><br />Have a blessed day everyone! And remember, you only have 30 shopping days until my BIRTHDAY! :)Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14131944936314542576noreply@blogger.com2