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Kirkland, Washington, United States
I am a child of God. I am a follower of Jesus. I am a wife, momma, daughter, sister and friend. I love good conversation and hearty laughter. A good cup of coffee is always appreciated. Most of all, I desire to bring others into an experience with Jesus. One that will shape their lives and rock their souls for Him. Geoff is my best friend and amazing husband. Parker is my handsome boy who lives in Heaven. Norah is my bright star and bringer of joy. Tori is my overcomer and peaceful warrior. I live to show Jesus' love to each person He places in my path. I pray this blog strengthens you, comforts you and encourages you and that it MOST OF ALL causes you to want to get to know Jesus in a deeper level.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Oh What a Dream...Hopefully It Will Come True

Just a quick one...

Have you ever awoke from a dream that made you lay there and say, "I hope that dream comes true"? In third grade I had a dream like that. It was of this boy, my crush for that particular week, we were playing on the playground and he ran up and kissed me. Then he grabbed my hand and asked if I'd like to be his girlfriend. Next thing I know, my mom's calling my name, telling me it's time to get up for school. *Poof* the dream is over. I desperately wanted to either sleep forever or have that dream come true, unfortunately neither happened. I went to school that day and the dream never came true.

Last night, I had another dream that made me lay in bed this morning hoping it will come true. The dream goes like this...

...I'm sitting in a chair holding a newborn baby. The baby looks similar to Parker, but I know that it's not Parker. The baby is wearing a red outfit. In my dream I can feel that the baby is very chunky and heavy (which is such a treat!). In my dream I can also see that the baby has just a skiff of hair. I'm not sure if the baby is a boy or a girl, but in my dream I'm feeling like it's a boy. Anyway, as I'm holding the baby, with one hand under their head, and the other under their rump, I'm staring at the baby's belly making sure it's breathing. In the background I hear Geoff say not to worry, that everything will be fine. I keep staring at the baby, examining the baby's face and then looking at the belly again to make sure the baby is breathing. Again, in the background Geoff tells me not to worry. Then the baby starts to cry, I can't hear the cries. I start to rock the baby gently as it slowly calms down and falls asleep. I continue to hold the baby, afraid to put the baby down, watching the baby's belly fall and rise. Geoff tells me, once more, that everything is fine and that I should let the baby sleep. That's it. The end. The alarm blared loud and I woke up.

What a beautiful dream. This was one of the most reassuring dreams I have had since Parker died. When I was pregnant with Parker I never had a dream like this. I never dreamt of holding Parker, never dreamt of having him here with us. So to have a dream of another baby, possibly one of our future little ones, is so SO reassuring!! Praise the Lord for reassuring dreams.

6 comments:

the POLEN's said...

I am so glad that YOUR dreams are good ones...

Parker was one of a kind. But there will be other little ones someday. That IS something to be joyous about :)

So for the time being, sweet dreams!

Jess said...

That's beautiful, Rachel. I too hope your dream comes true, and I can't wait to celebrate your next tiny miracle with you!

Brad said...

Dreams like that absolutely rock.

The state of your dreams tells you some about the state of your heart. You have such a peaceful spirit, Rachel.

Just bask in the "feel goodness" of that dream. Awesome. God's gifts like that cannot be ignored.

Lindsey said...

Aww that is such a sweet dream.

I love reading your blog. You're so transparent and honest. I hope someday I can be as real as you are. You're an inspiration. I love you and Geoff so much! [have i ever even met you?...lol]

-Lindsey G.

Andrea Cook said...

What a beautiful dream! God is so faitful. Praying your dream is soon a beautiful moment of reality.

Tauni said...

I had a dream while pregnant with Emery that this bright eyed little girl with curly hair had a smile that lit a whole room. I was hoping for a boy all the way up until I had that dream.

Then I knew it was a girl, at least I hoped it would be...

Everyday I spend with her, I see those sparkling eyes from my dreams.

I pray that God will bless you with that chunky darling complete with little tuff of hair.